Rorschach Reality

Joke of the day

2011-12-22T00:03:00.000-08:00

Q: Is there such a thing? Two headed sperm?

A: Yes, abnormal cell, should be out of one's hyper level in sex

Q: How does that work?

A: Simple. Just lie down

the 18th century victorian lady

2011-12-21T22:18:00.001-08:00

Yeaps thats the new nicky..& an urge of pride flooded

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POINT BLANK straight to the heart

2011-12-16T19:45:00.000-08:00

for the very first time i cried at work...all the strong part of me started to shatter..whats wrong with me? im bombarded with so much of things..i am cornered...WORK..PEERS...FAMILY!! i wonder the people who actually suppose to offer you their shoulder to lean upon and hold your hand when you need their comfort, guidance and understanding, just shrug away and sneer at you!!

They freaking say right on your face and walk away!!

and you expecting them to understand you..feel so stupid at the end of day

and this is not the first time happening to me, just this time with a BLOW!!

i was taken back, felt that someone slapped me hard and said who the heck asked you to lean on me? dont you have your shoulder??

perhaps i should quit trusting on them and live independently....

dont inspect me

2011-12-14T00:26:00.001-08:00

Im not bothered...least i could...if u wna noe my feelings hav the guts to say in front of my face....Lame!!!

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Sweet Calamity

2011-12-09T19:17:00.000-08:00

Chasing after the wind
unintentional yet sensational
the emotions that hurdled me
i was drowned with intense feelings
but i knew at the end of the day
i would not grasp it
i only could see the shadow
i could only find happiness
in that glimpse
that was beyond my reach
if it were, i would not reach out either
i knew i was chasing after something that
would bring sullenness
but i was left with no choice
if there was, i would not want to consider it either
let it be there, i would not want to step out of this

Love at lost,
MeL

From the I am MIND!!

2011-12-09T18:40:00.000-08:00

Dear bloggies,

I am shifting home... I havent slept the whole night...I am at work on a Saturday! I have been drinking 3 cups of coffee since 830am (its 1o now; approx). I am tired...!!

TUNE ON MY HEAD

2011-12-07T16:42:00.000-08:00

I got freaky, freaky, baby
I was chillin’ with my ladies
I didn’t come to get bougie
I came here to get crazy
I was born to get wiiild
That’s my style
If you didn’t know that
Well, baby, now you know now

The Black eyed peas (dirty bit)

What emotions?? BRING IT ON!!

2011-12-07T16:24:00.001-08:00

its really exciting...i cant wait for it...

i was expecting the message for a very long time

darn too long!!

and i received it!!

yay!!

but i realized should i feel this urge of feeling?

of course

i missed you...

seriously i did...

but was i dramatic about this whole incident?

would not you feel the same too??

or was i playing the solo character again?

perplexed at some moment of time

this churning of emotions slapped me hard

i would not want to fall..

i wanna stand firm,

its not worth it to fall

let me feel this..

im liking it..

bring it on!!

IF ONLY

2011-12-06T16:26:00.000-08:00

If only poverty vanished,

there would not be people dying in starvation,

If only talent and qualifications matters,

there would not be corruption

If only war was prohibited,

there would be peace among brotherhood

If only selfishness was not provoked,

Opportunities would open new doors

If only sweet dreams come true,

There would not be much disappointment

If only certain people were sincere,

There would not be broken hearts

If only dominion stepped down,

There would not be riots

If only feminism provoked,

There would not be prejudice

If only money could not buy almost all

There would be mere happiness

If only eternity prolonged,

There would not be tears

If only success rewards great efforts,

There would not be failures

If only...If only...

remains only a phrase of expression

if we choose it to be...

Make a choice!

Good day bloggies..!!

Love at lost,

MeL

To the BLOG with a LOST heart

2011-12-05T16:55:00.001-08:00

Lets flip a coin.....would that be a wise decision? I wonder; in total complication yet being adamant. Denying the consequences, I withdraw the anchor and set my ship to sail, no time for remorse, its time to cope.

Dear bloggies,

There will be an instant when you want to drop everything that is burdening your shoulders, cast it away and run towards escapism. That very moment, that very second, everything seem to an illusion, yet clear, you know what you want, you seriously know it. Deep inside your heart, you want that moments of self freedom as all the anxieties are crushed and shattered. Wishing that they would never sting you back. Mistakes are choices when you make them happen for the second time, but helplessly they do provoke your antagonistic instincts. I wonder if I could let them disappear, let it be self denial, I would bother less, for now; at least.

Love at lost,

MeL

Gitanjali

2011-11-15T16:44:00.000-08:00

On many an idle day have I grieved over lost time. But it is never lost, my lord. Thou hast taken every moment of my life in thine own hands.

Hidden in the heart of things thou art nourishing seeds into sprouts, buds into blossoms, and ripening flowers into fruitfulness.

I was tired and sleeping on my idle bed and imagined all work had ceased. In the morning I woke up and found my garden full with wonders of flowers.

-- extracted from Gitanjali by Rabindranath Tagore

Colourful Horizon

2011-11-13T16:09:00.000-08:00

it was completely different when I am with you

i dont have to put myself into that perfect behavior mode

because i realized that you accept me for the way I am

i was impressed

awed simultaneously

doubted;

perhaps it happened too fast

i have not thought about it

too instant

yet it was perceived as genuine

least i would hope on

i nested my feelings

and all of a sudden that captured emotions

exploded and colored that dull horizon

i stood in awe

is this me?

the best companions!!

2011-11-08T05:23:00.001-08:00

The Lady with the Pashmina

2011-09-09T20:05:00.000-07:00

Rolled myself perfectly

I strolled along the dimmed street

it was drizzling,

i could see those crystal drops plunging into the wet dirt

then i looked up

and those drops watered my face

feeling revived all of a sudden, i smiled

that cloth clung close to me

keeping me warm,

i could not do much than smiling

genuineness...

something was delightful

at that very moment

and i could not relish it more than other times

i didnt want the time to pass

a pause would be divine

The Pashmina was beyond comfort and warmth

folded close to my heart

shielded, an urge of protection

i could sense it and immediately i held it closer

i did not want it to slip away,

covering my head

and let the tassel dance

glorified at that very awkward moment

purely self mesmerizer

being showered, being loved

all that i could ever want now is a kiss and

a cup of steaming coffee

a great urge of happiness hurdled upon me

at that very bizarre moment

all that i could do is to love myself more

and indeed i will...

Love,

Mel

The Moon: My Silent Witness

2011-09-09T04:31:00.000-07:00

I sat beside you..

trying to sense the warmth

settling down, comfort zone seem to be far

yet I wanted too

gathering my emotions

I sat

and your arms clung to me tight

i almost lost my breath

and when you tilted my chin

and kissed me

i felt those butterflies released

outta "prison"

fluttering in complete freedom

hormones injected and its profuseness

attacking my mind

i felt that fire

i blushed, i smiled

i lost my breath

completely i was ransomed

and the moon was there still

my silent witness

i crossed my bandaged heart

and again...

with love crossing my bandaged heart,

Mel

Peter Pan

2011-05-18T07:50:00.000-07:00

You flew into my dreams

it was spectacular

i was in awe

in total ecstasy

like a small kid

you were my favorite addiction

so naive, so pure

you were like my Peter Pan

charming...cute and all that could make

a Wendy in me

you brought me into Neverland

fascinating indeed..

i refused to return

as you were so magical

all that i could say now is

i miss you Peter Pan...

fly here soon...

acecho mis pensamientos ...

2011-05-15T23:09:00.000-07:00

You are in my thoughts

that I would love to pen it down

You are like a beautiful sweet hum

anyone would love to listen

so mild...delicate...soothing

bringing those sweet memories ...

You make me smile for real...

an impression that stays for eternity

part of it still hurts me

and another that makes me myself

should i or shouldnt i??

Perplexed, confused

a hurdle of emotions..

shower of questions stumbling

holding me back

should i reach out to you??

Or am I being too confident??

Blank stares at blank pages

No easy way to say this

You mean well

But you make this hard on me

I'm not gonna write you a love song

'cause you ask for it

'cause you need one you see

I'm not gonna write you a love song

'cause you tell me it's make or breaking this

If you're on your way....

vous manque ...

2011-05-11T09:32:00.000-07:00

I had the courage to say that i missed you, I was awed by myself...I didn't expect myself to say that out...it just came out of my mouth...just like that...it sounded so spontaneous...it was..:) and so sincere...I shut my lips after uttering and when I heard it back from your lips that you feel the same, I smiled...it was beautiful...I saw of glimpse of heaven.

After putting down the phone, I murmured "it" and quickly prayed...

I wanted you so badly...in your arms...at least for that moment....I missed you...

from a TATTOO-ED HEART to the BLOG

2011-05-06T08:37:00.000-07:00

its weird when you want to talk to that person so badly...but it just doesnt happen...you want to cherish them, but something tells you not to...but unintentionally you will...and that moments will leave a smile on your face...how hardly you want to let them go...but you cant...and you will not...coz it has made its impression on your life...

and i wanna let you noe...

DEAR YOU,

its like your between life and death...right in between...i want you..i miss you so much...i want to held close to you and confess but i could not...its not what it seems...it will be an illusion...arent you not my destiny?

do you not feel the same? how i wish i could let u know that...n ZAP** everything goes back to square one..i dont want to jeopardize this thing between us...i am least sure the "thing" we share is a secret or something special? and i bet you wouldnt know it either...

as much i am clueless...i know you are....

the every time i search for you...i go missing...i remain lost...

u will remain as the missing piece of puzzle.....

WITH FORSAKEN LOVE,

from the STRONG HEART to the BLOG

2011-04-16T08:52:00.000-07:00

hye bloggies,

I am sorry for such an acceptable gap...many thgs happened..lotsa thgs...again been struck by the unpredictabilities of life...n nw here I am being slapped by the turbulences and found my ANCHOR...work...love...social network...faith....all corners suddenly attacked me...and me inda center!!!

it was like a war zone both mentally n physically!!

i was totally un-inspired and hated every morning as i wake up...:(

many besties of mine outta thr should noe my sudden dramatic n drastic change in act n speech..i was motiveless n felt like total trash..i found no hope in me!!

but i geared up...well no matter wat happens in life it still gotta move on!!

parents..friends n sistas were all surprised and sullen over me...

well now i have adapted wit my new phase o say stage in life and stil trust in LORD!!

for the best is yet to come!!

be of good heart peeps!!

Love u all...

MEL

from a sullen HEART to the BLOG

2011-03-09T00:40:00.000-08:00

hye bloggies,

let me apologize for abandoning my blog 4 weeks, its just that i have nothing much inspiring to shout about, so rather that crapping for the sake of blogging, i would rather write something i really wanna blog about.

thgs gt pretty messed up.. unpredictabilities of life just stabbed me hard...im pretty challenged for the sake of taking major steps in my life. but im not regretting...i am just impatient to get my chance to soar..

its pretty hard to be someone dat u dun wanna be..but situations make u such...life is so unpredictable peeps..u can forecast bt trust me u will look bad one instant n agree wit me..

be of couraged heart peeps...

MELINDA

Hum~

2011-02-24T16:45:00.000-08:00

Song of the moment : Gives you hell by All American Rejects

Now you'll never see
What you've done to me
You can take back your memories
They're no good to me
And here's all your lies
If you look me in the eyes
With the sad, sad look
That you wear so well
When you see my face
I hope it gives you hell, I hope it gives you hell

from the HEART with a lecture to the BLOG

2011-02-24T16:25:00.000-08:00

hye bloggies,

I have been thinking these past few days regarding how love could mould and break a person, and to make my thoughts even get its deeper voyage, I was actually giving a "'lecture" about it.

It all started yesterday evening when I called up Sharan for a coffee meet up after work, as I was badly craving for cupS of caffeine due to the heavy downpour; and without failing me, she actually came all the way to KL Sentral right after work to give me accompany.

So yea, while sipping on coffee, we talked about the LOVe Bug..it comes all of a sudden, stings you hard, u feel good at first and when the "wound" turns bad, it starts to give you indescrible pain and at that point you just feel like a BOND-LOSER!!

well ppl, let me be frank, its really foolish (as according to me) to have to much of expectation and too much hope based on a relationship that has no maturity nowadays. Well aint pin-pointing anyone, and after all five fingers arent the same.

This is because the moment you have too much of expectation from your partner, you tend to reach dissappoinment very quickly. The tendency is very likely to happen when you hope for things beyond what the relationship could offer at that point of time.

It would be better if you are pretty unsure about your relationship and its subsequent development, make a list of actions:

i) Do I really want this relationship? Is this love or just an affection?
ii) Should I give it a try?
iii) Am I willing to take the consequences? because you are responsible...like duh!!
iv) Make your own decision, do not get carried away or influenced by bad company. Be smart and act wise.
v) Talk to yourself
vi)Talk to your partner, if he/she is willing to take all the risks, troubles, conflicts to be with you
vii) Recognise and study your partner whenever you mention about "commitment"
viii) Dont blame yourself for things that turned out sour between you; she/he is aint perfect as well
ix) If you doubt, dont invest
x) If you opt for long term relationship, say it clearly

The list above is just an example of the do's and dont's of a shaky relationship, or perhaps not. There is no harm in making things clear and straight, in fact it saves you from all the conflicts and doubts in the distant future.

Be yourselves and fall in love. Observe and fall in love, not the other way around and remorse later..;)

MELINDA

from the HEART with a weak system to the BLOG

2011-02-23T17:12:00.000-08:00

hye bloggies,

Being so weak and incapable to be productive is more than enough to make your day even more gloom and dull...well thats really "inspiring" I would say. Its pretty pathetic to find yourself being at home, if you gotta feed yourself with various sizes, colours and shapes of medicinal capsules, and worst you gotta no appetite to eat!

This month allowed my body to turn up against myself thrice!
I have just joined work and I gotta 3 MCs!!
Its pretty bad..both impression and my pay slip!!
:(

Just hoping i would restore asap and get back to my normal state..

Peepx...pls bware of ur well being!!dats ur greatest wealth!!

MELINDA

from the HEART with a sick system to the BLOG

2011-02-20T17:42:00.000-08:00

hey bloggies,

I know I have nothing much to crap on in this blog. Feeling so uninspired and sick..
jz plain sick..its like my head is being pressed hard and its spinning simultaneously..
n my whole body system is chaotic..totally..im feelin totally dehydrated as I am
throwing out all da moisture I am trying to consume.

I have no appetite to eat...even to the extend of for-going my morning coffee...nw dats
really very2 severe.I will never ever compromise for dat, but i jz did..its like i am
feeling totally sick within..!!

The worst part is to be at office and hope that everything will be okay by time...total
bullshitness* but thr is nothing much for me to do..taking a half day wouldnt help me in
any way to restore..but i mgt opt for it..on da other hand, i mgt not as it would
cause a bad impression on me..imagine taking a half day off afta da weekends...isnt
dat so bad?

btw bloggies..its my humble and sincere request for u guys outta thr 2 really tkc of
urselves...da weather is so unpredictable and it sux!!

good day folkx!!

MELINDA

Sweet Hum

2011-02-17T22:12:00.000-08:00

Song of the moment: Perfect by Hedley

Falling a thousand feet per second, you still take me by surprise
I just know we can't be over, I can see it in your eyes
Making every kind of silence, takes a lot to realize
It's worse to finish than to start all over and never let it lie
And as long as I can feel you holding on
I won't fall, even if you said I was wrong

I'm not perfect, but I keep trying
'Cause that's what I said I would do from the start
I'm not alive if I'm lonely, so please don't leave
Was it something I said or just my personality?

from the SAD HEART to the BLOG

2011-02-17T17:04:00.000-08:00

Hye bloggies,

I was reading the Daily Chilli segment of the Star Online today morning; and it gave
me a melancholic feeling understanding that young girls are allegedly killed by their
close community for falling in love, in short termed as "honor killing".

An honor killing or honour killing[1] (also called a customary killing) is
the killing of a member of a family or social group by other members, due to
the belief of the perpetrators (and potentially the wider community)
that the victim has brought dishonour upon the family or community.
Honour killings are directed mostly against women and girls.
(extracted from wikipedia)

Well, its really very disturbing to face the fact that the patriarch society
is being so cruel over women. These unfortunate girls are brutally murdered and
"slaughtered" like animals. Where is the love? Where is human civilization hidden?

Please...its the new century people, come out from your cocoon. Please treat
women as human beings too. Practise on equal gender rights. If you arent happy
with a girl from your community for doing something illegal- as perceived by
the respective community (like falling in love, running away or marrying a man
from a different background), please do not act as predators.
Talk to them and come up with a humane-ly acceptable judgement.

But in my own personal opinion, these girls should be left alone, well they have
rights on their lives too. I am not being ignorant for the fact that parenting, family,
culture, tradition and community are non-vital elements. They are important
in moulding a girl, nevertheless a boy without any prejudice to live in mere
dignity, its a good practise; but this is extreme. There is a point
in the lives of an individual that these elements should realise in letting
them be in control of their own lives and pay the consequences that follows.

After all no one is perfect ...and life cant be one..

Ponder abt tis bloggies. We can make a difference.

MELINDA

from the FLIRTY HEART to the BLOG

2011-02-17T00:08:00.000-08:00

Dear bloggies,

Flirting is non-physical sexual communication between
two people to negotiate mutual attraction through body
language and verbal tactics.

Above is extracted from WIKIPEDIA

Peepx..outta thr..pls take note. I have highlighted
some really very important terms to be taken into serious
thought.

Rule No 1 : He/She is not committed to you.
Rule No 2 : Doesnt mean he/she flirts, he/she is interested.
Rule No 3: Its either he/she flirts, no any higher step of action takes place
eg introducing to parents, marriage and etc
Rule No 4: He/She isnt yours,so dont act obsessively. STOP BEING FOOLISH!!
Rule No 5: Dont tell or state in your FB that you guys are in a relationship
Rule No 6: You have no whatsoever rights in refraining her/him
from flirting with others.
Rule No 7: He/She is not your sex partner..(unless the party admits otherwise)
Rule No 8: Please do not claim that he/she is your life partner or your better half
or whatsoever terms that comply
Rule No 9: Its totally different from being scandalous!
Rule No 10: If you have no idea what I am saying about above, PLEASE DO NOT FLIRT!

Spread the word peepx!!

MELINDA

from da HEART to the BLOG

2011-02-16T23:17:00.000-08:00

hye bloggies,

I am inda verge of shouting to the guys outta thr!!
GUYS PLEASE..IF U GUYS LIKE A GIRL, PLEASE TAKE YOUR VERY OWN INITIATIVE TO
APPROACH THE GIRL BY YOURSELF!!PLEASE!!
its really very annoying if ur asking her fren, her sista o her colleage to
convey ur msg
i am inda situation of being conveyed and to convey...(in wic i really gonna let
it pass)
come on guys, man up!!
its really very lame
if u guys aint taking da slightest effort in impressing a gal, u thk she
gonna date u?o at least "layan" ur approach?

1st impression mgt not b da right one, but dont make it da worst one though...

til then take care bloggies
<3 u guys!!

MELINDA

From da HEART wit a weird mind to da BLOG

2011-02-15T23:35:00.000-08:00

da most weirdest thgs happen wen u realise its happening n u let it happen..just like dat
dats retard i noe
but seriously some thgs r pretty unavoidable
trust me
although u so badly wanna refrain it
but u happen 2 b in shyt at da end of day
i am not talkin abt "once bitten twice shy"
i am talkin abt da thgs u wanna do
but u ought not 2..due to some reasons of coz
i bet all of us do hav a list of this akinda crap
its like lettin history 2 repeat all ova again
but wit a betta twist tis time of coz
im glad 4 dat fact
although i noe im doin sumthg i dun wanna do
but caught myself doing
i noe im gettin wiser
n letting thgs happen as hw u hav it on ur head
is like extra kick man!!
u gt control of da situations although u dun wanna b in it
n u dun mess up as muc as u did prevly o at all
its both cool n lame
lolx

its pretty complicated i noe...well again...im me!!
good day bloggies!!

MELINDA

Song of the moment

2011-02-13T20:39:00.001-08:00

Song of the moment: Womeniser by Britney Spears

Look at you gettin' more than just a re-up
Baby, you got all the puppets with their strings up
Fakin' like a good one but I call 'em like I see 'em
I know what you are, what you are, baby

From the Heart on V-DAY to the blog

2011-02-13T17:38:00.000-08:00

hye bloggies,

Love is inda air..<3
well i made a point to stop by mid valley last night
to catch a glimpse of wat valentines is
tis year is all abt
as usual Diamond Platinum, M.A.C, Body Shop, Loccitane,
n bla2 was packed wit bunch of couples o at least lovers getting
sumthg 4 their loved ones.
well..whoa..wait..aint telling dat it is bad!!
its good 2 give sumthg extraordinarily special on tis day
to celebrate love..and in my opinion, love shud b clebrated everyday!!
show some love...show some passion..:P

well, as 4 me..i choose 2 b like tis..n well wen singles ask me
"Mel, ur hot...u should be with a hunk!"
well i jz answer..well guys i was with a fucktard 4 2years..n i dun find
any inspiration 2 fall in love. (wait2 dat doesnt count da dates i had wit some hunkies outta thr..:P)
i jz dun wanna fall in love jz 2 proove.."hey i can get a lover too! so wat if u dumped me?" lmfao... well dats like
being so severely retard..come on live ur life...its urs aint mine...then ur livin it 4 me??
y drama it? ass-hole!!

so im stil waiting 4 my prince charming to sweep me off my feet.:)

so then loves, live life n fall in love.
happy valentines day all!!

MELINDA

Sweet Hum

2011-02-11T03:21:00.000-08:00

Song of the moment: B.O.B's Airplanes feat Eminem and Hayley Williams

Like I never use to runaway into the blackness

Now lets pretend like it was all-good

Like I didn't live starring in a notebook

Like I did the things I probably knew I should

But I didn't have maybes that's why they call it hood

Now lets pretend like I aint got a name

from the HEART to da BLOG

2011-02-09T19:42:00.000-08:00

hye bloggies,

pls do accept my apologies 4 da uninspired blog i posted a few days back, i was outta my mind. its like wen im angry with myself, i tend to hate everythg abt me n dat includes wat i do..hw i look n bla2.

so being so demotivated and messed up, drove me 2 blog abt sumthg without any mere meaning. well i cant promise i wudnt do da same next time to b honest, but if history makes da next appearance, jz ignore it aite?:P

btw hows days goin by afta CNY?as 4 me, it is more relaxed than i predicted it 2 b. i am feelin muc betta day afta day..( despite 4 da fact dat rhinovirus attacked me 4 da time being:( )

so ppl outta thr...b extra careful wit ur health conditions as da climate fluctuates and pollution rate dun seem 2 plunge..so b healthy peepx..

luf u guys!!

MELINDA

My heart out..

2011-02-09T00:27:00.000-08:00

i was singing tis song inda washroom, inda ciggy section n while inda pharmacy...wats wrong wit me?lolx
Song of the moment: Yen Idhayam by Suchitra

melting away~~

2011-02-08T23:15:00.000-08:00

gazing into your eyes
i get all the answers
the way you look at me
i can feel the depth of passion
i know the urge
the heart pounding sense
i can feel the temptation
the desire screaming
the war field up there
the hearts set on flames
the body strugglin to control
n the lips curling to a grin
make me melt
make me long for u
make me yours
make it forever

MELINDA~~

A darkened Hope

2011-02-08T20:22:00.000-08:00

hope kept safe in a torture chamber
its dark
totally invisible
mysterical
will it still be the same?
or will it expire as time flies by?
should it be kept in mind?
or should it be forgetten?
when there is hope, it suppose to be a way
but if it is darkened, will it be a way?
is there any enlightnment?
i would rather keep it safe in the dark spot
rather than thinking ways to bringing it out
let that be imprisoned..
if at all it takes forver
let it be...

MELINDA~

reflecting moments

2011-02-08T19:04:00.000-08:00

its funny when sometimes how a song can inspire, motivate, commerate, break and influence a person. As for me, the only song that
i could play (in accordance to da situation of my life) is Rehab by Rihanna feat Justin Timberlake (i posted it inda prev blog). Looking at those lyrics and the video clip,
i could really put myself n him thr (although we very muc dun resemble the artists) but yea da emotions r 4 real.
its really weird how girls could b like dat eventhough deep down in her heart she knows he is not da one, but then persists 4 da sake of not cheating herself..
well talkin abt dat bizzare emotion is definitely abt me..
im not resistant o being lovey dovey (of coz not) bt then this intense emotions of guilt,temptation, anger n subtleness slaps me hard
everytime i thk of him.
wat onda heck made me to fall in2 tis akinda messed up, chaotic dillema?
i blame no one, except 4 myself..
n i oso blame him,of coz he cant escape from tis...he is guilty as well.
as he was using me and i was doing likewise.
4 some reasons i gotta thank da lyricist 4 being so straight-forward
bcoz it akinda changed my POV..
im glad dat i realised and da oni thg i hope 4 is
a total diversion...n thr is no turning back
i wil b da same..hell no changing 4 any1
but i wont b foolish no longer
that explains why i attach songs n lyrics nowadays..:)

btw folkx...live life n gt inspired
luf u guys!!

MELINDA~~

gaga vs "log"

2011-02-07T18:21:00.000-08:00

hye bloggies,

how is lyf treatin u folkx outta thr?as 4 me..well...hw cud i say it?its slow n steady..but the trend doesnt always stay da same it fluctuates it either gets 2 plunged (meaning im like a log) o ascended (meaning im like goin gaga)...meaning to say dat most of da time its slow & steady..life is moving...every week bcomes like a new chapter..days seem 2 pass too fast nowadays.isnt it?

yea so...well...(darn..im off-tracking)

IM SO FRIGGIN BORED!!!

its like lyf is gettin so predictable n routine...:(

Bleeding my heart out with a sound

2011-02-07T16:52:00.000-08:00

Song of the moment: REHAB by Rihanna feat Justin Timberlake

Cause anytime that you needed me

i'd b there

its like you were my favourite drug

the only problem is

that you was using me

in a different way that i was using you

but now that i know its not meant to be

you gotta go i gotta ween myself off of you

Song of the moment

2011-02-06T18:33:00.001-08:00

Song of the moment: Love Song by Sara Bareilles

Head under water
And they tell me to breathe easy for a while
The breathing gets harder, even I know that

You made room for me, but it's too soon to see
If I'm happy in your hands
I'm unusually hard to hold on to

Blank stares at blank pages
No easy way to say this
You mean well, but you make this hard on me

delayed love

2011-02-06T17:54:00.000-08:00

i looked at the calendar

days passed by

looked at the time

minutes passed by

i glanced at my phone

not a single beep

i asked myself

did i missed you?

and it agrees

but its shallow

i wanted you so badly

but at the same time i relished this silence

loving the delay

as if it makes me think of you

loving the gap

as if we are gonna burn again in passion the next time we embrace

its a delayed love

totally struck!

MELINDA

In my head

2011-02-06T04:51:00.000-08:00

Song of the moment: Wait a minute by PCD feat Timbaland

Baby, please, I'm fine

I'm not one of these hoes
Chasing dreams not diamond rings
So don't call me no more

Burning Passion

2011-02-06T04:43:00.000-08:00

it was intense

i knew you wanted me, as much as i wanted you

the way you grabbed me, felt the passion

it was burning

it was hot

we smiled, we kissed

temptation and lust

it was a great mind war

the way you pushed my hair

the way you pulled me to you

the way you bit my lips

it was burning

i knew you felt it

as our hearts were set ablaze...

it was a perfect seduction

a perfect mind war...

Humming.....

2011-02-03T15:34:00.000-08:00

Song of the moment: Tujh Mein Rab Dikhta Hai - Rab Ne Bana Di Jodi

kaisi hai yeh duri, kaisi majburi

translation:what kind of distance is this, what helplessness

kabhi teri khushbu, kabhi teri baatein

translation:sometimes your fragrance/scent, sometimes your talks

tu hi dil ki hai raunak, tu hi janmo ki daulat

translation:you are the light of my heart, you are the wealth/treasure of my lives

aur kuchh na janu, bas itna hi janu

translation:i don't know anything else, i know only this

Chillis wit da loved ones

2011-02-02T19:42:00.000-08:00

for the starters...

mum & dad

me n janu

me n tina

love da interior

From the HEART to the BLOG

2011-01-31T21:04:00.000-08:00

Hye loves,

Its a public holiday....yayness!! so im guessing that u folkx outta thr r having great fun...for those who loves to hibernate, dun gt outta ur bed..for those who loves to catch up sum movies n gossips..rush 2 da shopping complexes..for those who wanna b in total serenity, make urself a cup of hot jasmine tea n listen to good tracks...

well, lol...back to me...i woke up 2day morning wit a gear to clean my crib...started wit my room, to the stair way n then to the water closets..n nw im enjoying a cup of good coffee and listening to one in a million by ne-yo. :)

i just realised actually da simple things in ur life can make ur life spark wit lotsa happiness and self contentment. im a happy child today.

How abt u??

good day folkx..

MELINDA

Caught me humming..^^

2011-01-30T22:25:00.001-08:00

Song of the moment : Just cant say its love by Frankie J

I wanna say it so bad

but somethg keeps tellin me no

Contemplating, still debating

shud i just let it go?

DREADFUL...completely

2011-01-30T16:24:00.000-08:00

Hye bloggies,

Its really very..i mean very2 dreadful to come 2 work 2day..it has been raining since yesterday..n da countless times i gt wet..well coming to da point, i so badly wanna stay in my bed...like forever hibernate and laze on my bed..well enjoying da warmth my comforter could offer me the best.n if at all i wake, i would imagine myself sitting on my bed very close 2 da window pane to see hw da rain pours and da gloomy weather jz makes my mind at complete ease.

So, I am so inda mood of dashing outta my workstation, grab some breakfast, take da lrt back home...dash in2 my room, play some music, have breakfast, watch some good movies and then gt lazy...well its holiday mood outta thr...

Da lrts n roads r pretty empty. Thr r least ppl outta thr walkin to n fro. Da restaurants r almost empty 2..so meaning dat everyone is enjoyin either their slumber o already inda rural environment..aka balik kampung.

Its really sick to come 2 office 2day n typing tis blog, its like nthg great inspired me to pour heart out. Da only reason I came 2 work 2day is to get my pay, but then da complications subsequently follows..will come bk 2 dat point some otha time. Just dun wanna make my blog a complain box..

Till then folkx, tkc n Gong Xi Fa Cai.

MELINDA~~

Phuket 25/12/10-28/12/10 part 1

2011-01-29T02:19:00.000-08:00

hye folkx..at last i could upload da pics taken...its akinda jumbled up though...my bad..:P

took tis early inda morning...ard 630am from da balcony

from the balcony again..

spot inda balcony where we had our drinks...:P

da wonder women on board..:P

santa's crib inda lobby

aawhness..

our exclusive suite...:)

tina n mel..

abt 2 board...

upon reaching novotel..

Phuket 25/12/10-28/12/10 part 2

2011-01-29T01:37:00.000-08:00

haha...quenchin my thirst..:P

coral island...

NOVOTEL

massage spa....

aromatherapy ingredients placed outside the parlor...

the most scrumptious thai food served here...

the 3 tier swimming pool

the buffet hall...

NOVOTEL PHUKET

parents inda airport

Rainbow Heart

2011-01-28T23:12:00.000-08:00

i looked deep into my heart

there is so much of colors painted with blood

blue to show those time when i was in great despair

scarlet to show those times when i was once in love

green to show my passion

yellow for all the golden opportunities

pink to reflect my childhood times

black to show all my wailing and pain i endured

white to show hope

violet to convince me the future

orange for cheerfulness

magenta reflects mere power

silver to show my dreams

but there is one distinct color...

i pondered hard...

it was "colorless"

i knew it showed the emptiness of my soul

so much so as for the rainbow of my heart

MELINDA~~

Humming my heart out..

2011-01-28T03:47:00.000-08:00

Song of the moment: Battlefield by Jordin Sparks

Dont try to explain your mind; I noe wat's happenin here

One minute its love...and suddenly its like battlefield

from my heart to the blog....

2011-01-27T23:29:00.001-08:00

sometimes i wish my heart is like a bud of a flower

not that fancy; not that sophisticated

a simple yet divine

so that when it blossoms;

its beautiful

and when its "hurt"

i could pluck the petals away

and when there is no hope

it is totally withered...

and if hope resurrects

it could be moisturized again

a flower resembling my heart..

simple yet significant

MELINDA~

so badly wanna hear to this track...

2011-01-27T17:58:00.000-08:00

Song of the moment : Just a Dream by Carrie Underwood

i was counting on forever, and know i will neva know

i cant even breathe

its like im looking from a distance

standing in the background

does it make any sense?

2011-01-27T17:51:00.000-08:00

i lay on my bed

tears crawled down my cheeks

should things be like this?

why is there so much of complication?

has confusion became the air i breathe?

in great turmoil; i fetched my mobile

i looked at it

i gasped for air

its you again..

i felt revived, although i know something clearly goes wrong between us

combating against my rationality

i gave away

i could not withstand the power

i surrender

i could not the grudge

all i want is a happy ending

will i get it??

remedy for the soul...=D

2011-01-27T00:45:00.000-08:00

SPOTTED!!

2011-01-26T22:40:00.001-08:00

hye bloggies,

well to be honest, im not dat sho if the pic above shows either a)haunted b)forsaken c)not inherited...btw sorry folks tis pic was taken from the ciggy allocated region of the highest floor of OUA Bangsar.:(

it all started yesterday wen my boss took me for a CCM meeting, so he told me to walk wit him 2 his car, n he really gotta park his car in front of tis creepy building..n i was like freaking close to it...bt i didnt wanna take a shot of dat dat time..DARN!!

i gotta sum impression to sustain..actually!!

it looks pretty creepy...not exactly freaky..it might o not b haunted as da doors arent thr so inside of the building doesnt look dat scary..perhaps i wanted to see more of antique portraits, half broken rockin chair, stairs dat leads to nowhere..etc for me 2 assume its haunted...

so let things b as it is...im not on a mission 2 bust wateva supernatural "thgs"!

btw its at bangsar!!

MELINDA

Song of the moment

2011-01-26T17:27:00.000-08:00

RuPEE: Tempted to touch

Before the end of the night

i wanna hold you so tight

you know i wanna you so much

and i am so tempted to touch

greetings!!!

2011-01-26T17:11:00.000-08:00

hye bloggies,

fillin up blog with poems and songs huh?lolx...4 those guys who r gettin sick of it...dun worry lotsa pics r coming up soon..n 4 those who r reading it and liking it..fear not :P...dats wat i ought 2 do in my blog...as ppl (readers) have commented me 2 expand my writing skills...n writing of coz needs to be inspired by music...:)

and yea..im taking the baby steps in my novel writing efforts..its a short novel btw..oh common im an amateur..:P

well to say much 4 nw, i am at work..blogging..lolx..actually i gt sick of reading the analysis and submission so taking a break..:P illegal...of coz...bt who cares:P
yea..im suffering from mood swings nowadays...aware of it and need not to take any remedy as long as my Mp3 is always beside me...:)

so bloggies outta thr..good day all!!

MELINDA

inner war

2011-01-25T18:15:00.001-08:00

i am feeling lost

am i cheating myself?

why so much of complication?

mere confusion

i am blurred completely

i dont know how to comfort myself

i dont want cheat myself

i dont want to convince myself

when im daring enough to pay for the consequences

i am not skeptical

i am just a fighting a battle with myself

MELINDA

caught myself humming....

2011-01-25T16:36:00.000-08:00

Song of the moment: En Kathal Solla

sounding like i missed you?

2011-01-25T00:16:00.000-08:00

yea..i do miss you

i dont only sound like one

but indeed i do

i miss you so much

and im glad it came 2 your consiousness

although you opt to be invisible

indeed you are my Hollow Man!!:)

melinda

Song of the moment

2011-01-24T23:39:00.000-08:00

Humming : THERE SHE GOES by six pence none the richer

No one else could heal my pain;

And i just cant contain..this feeling that remains...

purest seduction

2011-01-24T18:23:00.000-08:00

i held u close

dont want to let you go

i kissed you

i knew it was wrong

but i would not give a damn

i wanted you

i seriously wanted you

the way you held me

made me feel so secure

you seduced me

you made me think of you now

you conquered me

you made me fall into your temptation

it was the purest moments of that time

under the moon,

partially awake

im disturbed

it was the purest seduction

MELINDA~~

song of the moment

2011-01-23T20:20:00.000-08:00

Raven Symone: Some call it magic

as long as ur alrite

2011-01-23T16:33:00.000-08:00

its weird wen u told me dat u wanna go invisible

cmon we noe da truth..

y r u denyin it?

ur not avoiding it o me

bt jz denyin it

i admit..i confess

but its not ur fault either mine

blame none

hw long will u go missing??

bcoz da wound within u

is way muc more inbearable than da separation now

i noe

i undastd

i noe u 4 da past several years

i hav been thr 4 u; as muc as u hav been thr 4 me

n nw u say ur alrite

nw im pretty confused

shud i leave it o not?

isnt it making a bad impression?

i leave da questions to u...

as long as ur alrite...

MELINDA

im me..so wat??

2011-01-22T23:52:00.000-08:00

it shudn't concern u muc as it does 2 me?i mean i do recognize da deeds u did 4 me,but whoa!!tis is goin outta control n topic..dude...i gotta my own life n i noe hw 2 deal wit it...so wat if i look like tis?tis is hw i choose 2 b..n aint gonna hurt u a lil?so back off n do sumthg betta..coz im not gonna say anythg bad 2 myself..

Song of the moment: Stupid girls by PINK

Disease's growing, it's epidemic

I'm scared that there ain't a cure
The world believes it and I'm going crazy
I cannot take any more
I'm so glad that I'll never fit in
That will never be me
Outcasts and girls with ambition
That's what I wanna see
Disasters all around
World despaired
Their only concern
Will they **** up my hair

song of the moment..

2011-01-22T19:26:00.000-08:00

Katy Perry Part of Me (lyrics, audio) » Right On Music

skeptical me...

2011-01-22T14:55:00.000-08:00

hye bloggies <3,

well i noe lately i am and being skeptical even at tis very moment..yeap..well i can blame the sex (for those who claim themselves of being a proud sexiest) and/or age factor. its not dat i dun agree bt i fail to realize although yea..its akinda obvious but perhaps its jz my ego wudnt give me up..skeptical in da sense dat i do doubt bt sumtimes i dun (i hav friggin no idea why), i am not an emo-kid o a sarcastic one (haha..mayb at times..lolx) its jz dat sumtimes ppl crap shyt!!

cmon ppl, aint u realizing dat im shooting u wit my sarcasm wen u tell me all those shytee thgs dat i dun wanna even noe, n da way u guys put it in words to impress me..uuurghh!!it gets ugly ppl...yea i mgt b hearing, not listening...n im quite generous at giving sum shots of sarcasm..so yea GET UR FREAKIN WAKE UP CALL!!

outta focus

2011-01-21T22:42:00.000-08:00

its weird
total bizarreness
my thoughts split
i lost control of myself
as if i was renting my own body
my mind wasn't obedient to me
i couldn't pay the least attention
i was murmuring
looking impatiently at the clock
waiting for my mobile to make a sound
i don't want to get disappointed again
i don't want to cheat myself any longer
the feelings was intense
my heart thumps fast
my blood gushes to my brain every time i think of it
should i blame myself?
i am lost in my own world
i was tormented but i could smile
confused, total chaotic
and weirdly i was anticipating for it
i felt like a machine..
i was looking into myself and asking
but the questions remained unanswered
but...
but...
perhaps there is no questions at all...
....
....

MELINDA

why?

2011-01-20T03:50:00.000-08:00

why did you held me close in your arms?

why did you cling over me?

why did you breath fast?

why did our lips brushed?

why did you kiss me so gently?

why did you brushed away my hair from my face?

why did you kiss me so passionately?

why did you?

félicitons-nous 2011

2011-01-13T17:41:00.000-08:00

Hye bloggies,

Its already 2011...gosh hw time flies....n here starts our moments of overwhelming fear and anticipation to face another new year...i dunno abt u guys...bt i felt it..really very hard...well da reason is jz simple..im abt to start a new job..n i was nervous...mere nervous...all da jobs i hav involved myself is far beyond close to the new one coming up.

So, being so shaken up, i was earnestly praying on the last day of 2010, in da church of coz...(yeap...i dun club..:P) to grant me His presence whereever and wateva I do..

dayum..i hate wen i cudnt link thgs together..

hmm...oraite...so wat i wanna shout to u folks outta thr is to bind all fears and gear up...2011 is another new chapter in our lives so wit muc enthuasiam, courage n drive..lets make history.

yucks...hate u!!

2010-11-11T21:05:00.000-08:00

thr is suc a moron in class...suc an a**hole..suc a drama king..hate da sight of him...he thks he noes alot..n everythg..bt trust me he is not..like an empty vessel...HE NOES NOTHING>>
total chaotic idiot..!!

totally...IDK

2010-11-11T18:54:00.000-08:00

its like been so tiring tis past few days..i can t sleep well (despite 4 da fact dat me gotta wake up early as in earlier than da dayum clock strikes 6am!!)..my appetite fluctuates...i wanna an escapey...badly..i mean really very badly...ARRGHNESS!!
i gotta so muc of thgs 2 do..bt its jz dat my mind is both chaotic n messed up...its like i dun wanna b repeatative, so-like machine..i wanna off days on weekends!!dayum rotation!!so muc so as 4 my job hopping trend:P yeap...gt da 1st pay and TARAHHHH!!!
yeap...i do undatsd da fact dat i mgt set a bad example to some of u guys outta thr...BUT I CANT HELP it...it so freakin annoying 2 b like tis!!!

GODELL>>dayum GO HELL!!

2010-11-11T00:26:00.000-08:00

wat da &*^%$@#^&*!! its like 7am inda morning n im at da parking f**kin machine, tryin 2 pt in da coins which keep on vomitting back..its pretty frustrating wen ur standing at a corner wit God noes hw muc of coins in ur hands..tryin all da time so dat coins gt in2 dat dayum machine..(dayum y do i suddenly hav da urge 2 eat satay?:P)hahaha..OFF TRACK!!! yeap...n thr was like a queue of ppl waitin...!!i was like freakin pissed off...i was doin dat dayum bloody freaking thg 4 half an hr...n i gotta log into my PC at work!!thr goes my punctuality n my precious coffee time!!
:( n i f**kin dun like dat!!
so then i came 2 da idea of payin da parkin fees up 2 lunch time...n then coming all da way bk 2 pay da hours til i end work....so yea..extra enery being wasted!!but thank God at least dat instant impetus worked out!!YAYNESS!!i wudnt hav da slightest idea if dat idea didnt work out either??!
so yea...thank GOD!!btw im so freaking sleepy n hungry..wanna go bk home badly...bt i gotta hot Preventive Healthcare afta tis...nthg formal i hope...:P
okie then folkx...thx 4 reading my super annoyed blog..bear wit me peepx..luf ya peepx!

ASSessment..wat SHYT??!!

2010-11-08T16:17:00.000-08:00

well again at work n im having an ASSessment...(u guys shud noe y da 1st 3 alphabets r uppercase?!:P)its so boring...done in..hmm..say....less than 10mins n im freaking bored...cmon!!
btw yesterday i was so freaking sleepy bt i cant sleep..not 4 da fact dat me gotta revise o wat shyt?bt i jz cant perhaps i jz cant!!(owh okie im repeatative nw..bear wit me folx)btw bk 2 wat im saying...im so freakin sleepy, annoyed and super lazy..i wanna curl on da bed..pulling my comforter n hugging my pillow tite..(awhness)or else given da option of being at da peak of Camerons sipping chai tea n munching on da scones...dayum..feel so freaking pampered nah??hahaha...
actually da whole point is jz dat im a type of person dat gets bored on a super fast trend. i need alteration...i wanna fluctuations (okie dat is seriously bizzare..:P)
i wanna job-hop...i wanna race...i wanna go 4 an escapey..i wanna dance...i wanna shop..i wanna travel, i wanna go kayak-ing...
shyt!!im so MUNDANE!!thr is so muc of thgs outta thr 2 explore..n im here!!:(

CRUSH???CRASH??

2010-11-07T23:58:00.000-08:00

da oni thg i cud do while bloggin is controllin my grin...:P
well 4 u guys who noes me very well....i love seeing cute hunkies..well who doesnt??bt who confesses in a blog??:P
yeap..even though i was in a relationship...i was not hindered...haha..i was stil turning my 3rd eye on...haha
well sayin abt most of my crush..from high skool, college, uni, work(nah!) n bla2...i hav tis big FEAR...wat if it crashes??
yeap...so i wil let da butterflies flutter while i mask my expressions ( if im good at it)...warning to those hot hunkies: pls dun make 2 muc appearance, my heart may pop out..:P
n nw...i jz cud smile...aawhness!!

HANGOVER MODE ON>>

2010-11-07T21:24:00.000-08:00

according to wikipedia, hangover means describes the sum of unpleasant physiological effects following heavy consumption of alcoholic beverages. The most commonly reported characteristics of a hangover include headache, nausea, sensitivity to light and noise, lethargy, dysphoria, diarrhea and thirst, typically after the intoxicating effects of the alcohol begin to wear off.

Clearly i am experiencing it, i basically ate a breakfast meal 4 my lunch..n its not a worldly brunch time..i had coffee..a really kaw-kick one...yet results:-VE

i had toast n butter..da toast was so bloody dried..bt i enjoyed da butter though:P

then came my chic chop...GAWD!!it was so muc...n i cudnt finish it:( i was so hungry yt dayum i cant..so i basically shud hav not ordered da 3rd meal..bcoz i basically wasted muy food..so muc as so 4 my enthusiasm against starvation & poverty 4 da 3rd world countries!!:(

im bk to the training aka torment chamber..AGAIN!!wen everyone is revising n me??haha

at work...doing da best "F"

2010-11-07T19:43:00.000-08:00

actually i am blogging inda midst of my training...n im sitting rite in front of my trainer...haha..so wat??as hw da slogan goes..fun,focus n fulfillment..let me do da 1st "F" wit da purest frive...:P
im actually in a hangova effect..3/4 bottom on wit a kurta..n weird a good make up though..camouflaging in almost perfect way...OFF TRACKING@@@
Skyspeed..shud i say gettin complicated o less as hw I perceive??i dunno...:P
okie then folkx,gettin those hints..wil blog u asap
luf yall!!

those blissful times

2010-10-25T03:16:00.000-07:00

its a sudden craving....wanna holding a lollipop inda hand, wearing those tutu skirt, hair tied into 2 ponytails..clinging at papa...cried wen i was hurt, didnt have to conceal wen i was in despair n laugh out loud with amma..grandmother feeding me as i ride on my bicycle, papa applyin iodine to those heroic wounds..i wana go back to those times..as days go by, i really wanna reverse the time..i dun mind goin thru all again..coz my childhood times was a bliss~~ dont tell anyone of u guys dont agree wit me?those times whr we were so naive, harmless..haha..unbroken, always on glee mode..I NEED A TIME MACHINE!!

sorry Rizzo!!

2010-10-23T04:25:00.000-07:00

dayum..blog dead for a few days..i noe peepx..sorry again?lol..aint anythg new...rite?btw da topic 4 2day wud abt apology...i owe a big apology 2 one of my bestie Rizwan...well it all started wit a stupid lame attire..haha...n he was commenting on it sayin dat i was on my way 2 safari n stuffs like dat..haha..n i noe abt tis sweetheart...he always loves me laughin...n likewise...bt suddenly thgs gt messed up he mis-assumed dat i was angry n he wrote me an apology note...awhh...i felt so overwhelmed..n suddenly a sting of guilt stabbed me hard...he moved away from me..thkin dat he did somethg bad..so lets make da story short...v sms-ed...at work time..oopssie..anyway who doesnt??n i dun care...winkx..n thank God we r okie nw...dost 4eva!!aawhness!!

désastreuses octobre

2010-10-17T01:48:00.000-07:00

hye folkx rememba da previous blog sum time ago in which i was akinda anticipating for the arrival of this month, well it turned out to be bad, i mean totally messed up...well 4 some of you guys who is unaware 4 da fact da i had a plunge down da staircase lately, which I would also thank God for the absence of any fracture or terrible mishap, i suffered from bruises and quite a bad level of blood coagulation due to my inflammation. I cant sleep, sit and even walk on a normal mode, gosh I prayered for a recovery a speedy one 2..thank God I am nw, just hope thgs wil be as for normal soon, it just hinders me 2 do my normal routine with much efficiency and 4 dat fact I got furious ova myself...arrghh!!but i would again thank God, my family and my frens for all da love and da support u guys showered upon me, even a phone call was a great remedy 4 me dat time..2 all my switheart frens, thx again!

btw regarding the mini vacation to kuala selangor, wil update u guys shortly, as da my DC is upstairs so I wil excuse myself tis time..:P

btw folkx, thx 4 reading...n luf u guys!!

racist b******!!!

2010-10-08T08:56:00.000-07:00

its really disgusting to see n actually experience people ard u being so racist...i wonder y??v r all created under da same image of GOD,...so wat makes u so different from me??cmon lame folks, come out from ur coccoon and see what da world is abt 2 offer u...only uncivilized folks r much keen abt race, skin colour n all those features..bt v r brethren!!share da brotherhood....spread da good news!!

jz with strings attached>>

2010-10-07T08:19:00.000-07:00

i jz feel like a puppet..so numb...no emotions running thru my mind..i feel empty...jz with strings attached...the motions r controlled..i mean outta my control...i wanna soar like an eagle...i wanna go 2 my destination..away from my cage..i dun wanna 2 b like tis....cut da strings away!!

despair n desperation

2010-10-07T06:32:00.000-07:00

im in total distressed mode...its like all i achievement n endured thus far is bringing me to this consequent..i noe its rather foolish..bt i gotta express it...hoping that i wud feel betta (hope i will)...its jz dat i feel so pressured to a point of time in a way dat i feel so..so...being taken advantage of...need space to move but i hav been restricted to...i need 2 fly but my wings r torn...so burdened dat i wanna rip off my heart..im jz prayin so hard...God please answer me..!!

Handle with care!!

2010-10-05T05:15:00.000-07:00

da only human organ which is jz only a fist big...bt can handle thousands of emotions slappin via impulse...

distress..happiness..love...dissappoinment..pain..bla2..da list goes on..bt i wanna emphasize largely on heart break..da moment wen u feel a stabbing sensation right deep into ur heart, so painful that it thumps freakin fast, gushin blood thru da wound n tears streaming!!

peepx..pls treat my heart with extra caution!!coz i mgt slip..bt i wil neva fall...n trust me Karma will pay bk..biting rite at ur f**kin ass!!

Bienvenue octobre

2010-10-04T07:10:00.000-07:00

here comes a month which indicates "damn da year is gonna end freakin soon..did i accomplish my new year resolution??" n trust me b4 u cud really summarize all ur achievements and nots...u actually dun...well it doesnt work 4 me either..
n tis month..gosh 4 me i went ill on da 2nd day itself..n im recovering still..well i dunno wat da rest of da dates gonna offer..bt im hopin 4 sum exciting n non-mundane incidents..im pretty sick of all those non-spontaneous events occuring 4 da past 3 months...im sick!!stage: almost severe..im expecting of lotsa cash, shoppin mode always on (aint standby), lotsa pic shots, a simple bt good rated vacation,cute nah..i mean hot hunks 2 look at ><, owh yea a good set of shades 4 my eyes..gosh da list is goin on..wait2..i wanna party like crazy 2!!so lets live october n see if it happens da way v wanna it 2 b!!at least hw i wanna it 2 b!!

system of a down

2010-10-04T06:35:00.000-07:00

hates da fact dat i hav not been well lately..as if my whole routine gets messed up...went 2 work on saturday..n da pain overwhelmed me..dayum i was in tears wen i gotta call up people...it was so shitty n i gt so muc of attention..n the next day at church..gosh!!i was prayin hard dat i cud b normal...sunday nite was da headline..i was cryin in pain!!rushed 2 da clinic...earned attention again n lotsa medics...dayum i was at home n felt so unproductive...in pain...tears rollin..felt angry with myself...as if i became da stumbling block..hindering me from doin my chores....arrghh!!hate dat..thank god im feelin betta nw..hope my system wil sumhw restore subsequently..<>

To the glorious dead...

2010-09-19T04:31:00.000-07:00

the cenotaph bearing the names of our fallen heroes during the WWI

TUGU NEGARA left me at awe tis noon as I marched into tis spectacle historic spot. I been thr 12 years bk bt stepping again into the pavement of art n history fusing together is simply tremendous. This national monument was established by the efforts of our 1st Prime Minister wit suc a taste on art and the sculpture of bronze was created by Felix de Weldon.

Height of Sculpture: 15 metres
Area: 12 acres

mum n dad..>>ignore da one at da back...

tis fountain located at the pavilion in the center looks so to be wow-ed abt 4 sum reasons...maybe because it is made in pewter?dats one of the reason..but as 4 me, it reflects the 15m high bronze statue..:O

sh** funny

2010-09-16T09:12:00.001-07:00

its freaking 1212am nw...im tired 2 da point dat i cant sleep...so despite chatting...i was glancing at some pictures randomly, and my laughing mode was switched on...

these 2 pictures below are simple..but i had a really good laugh!!

Malaysia Day (16th Sept 2010)

2010-09-16T04:25:00.000-07:00

The Malaya Map

hye folks, 1st of all let me explain why v had a day off 2day...its called Hari Malaysia. Plus, from this year onwards,it has been declared as a national off day. Many people are confused between independence day with this, but da real fact is..: The name Malaysia was adopted in 1963 when the existing states of the Federation of Malaya, plus Singapore, North Borneo and Sarawak formed a new federation (Wikipedia). Thus to celebrate the day of such importance, our PH team took da opportunity to celebrate both Hari Malaysia and birthday for the August n early Sept babies...n to make things even more patriotic, we sang the National Anthem wit muc enthusiasm!

da Malaysian themed choc moist cake with fresh cream covered n decorated wit our flag>>

rizzo lighting up da candles>>

da PH team

Nisha giving her Malaysian Day speech...>>

mel n lil camwhoring..:P

back 2 square 1

2010-09-14T04:42:00.000-07:00

jz one bloody random pic of mine..hahaha

hye folks...guess most of u peeps hav noticed my status in facebook...thank u so muc 4 all ur concern n advise...thank you 4 givin me da courage 2 move on...i wud express my deepest gratitude to my lovely sistas Siouxsie n Lolly...n of coz my colleague Rizzo..one of my bestie...Menaha@Piggy...n my pet-bro Abel...n of coz my fellow friends...luf u guys

mum's birthday @ d italliana kitchen

2010-09-14T04:30:00.000-07:00

hye folks, im sorry 4 such a gap...it has been ages i hav blogged...i noe...im sorry....btw let me start wit mum's birthday at this exclusive italian cuisine...it was a total surprise 4 her..i dunno hw she is not aware of da arrangements..werent we obvious?

i like da setting n da simplicity of the deco items...it was both practical and cozy...

btw amma was so radiant on dat evening...she was so touched and believe me she didnt hav da slightest idea..and as usual tears of joy gushed out...we had da cake been brought by da crew thr...n we sang the birthday song wit muc enthusiasm...n of coz earned lotsa attention as well...haha..

one of the staff bringing the cake in...at this moment amma was at awe...

da food was awesome...thr was lamb steak, poultry platter, lasagna, rum, choc, cocktails, coffee n etc...we indulged...satisfied...stil rememba hw i forced myself 2 eat those creamy mashed potato!!!

the appetiser...

okie...wait..i totally 4got tis...bt it was both caffeine-ic n creamy

mum's choice..choc, rum n ice cream

mine...

aawhh....switness

glad dat u enjoyed urself ma....luf u so muc!!

biar btol?

2010-07-28T04:42:00.000-07:00

Electro- da brand new chewy and yummy thg dat stays in ur mouth....indeed refreshing n efficient.The electrifying effect jz kips u in ultimate satisfaction..been thr..done dat..

peeps....its da new packing !!! its jz chewing gum!!gotcha!!!boom2 pow!!:P

well...its refreshing n nice according 2 Leong..so peeps wanna gt a 2nd glance inda public..gt tis new packing of chewing gum...bet u wud gt lotsa attention n of coz phunkin ppl!!

Bloody Intention

2010-07-27T05:40:00.000-07:00

I looked at the scarlet stain;

Indeed it was slithery against my gloves,

Intensely evil,

Perfect scheme;

The limpless figure was there,

the trophy of my hunt.

I felt so strong, passionately brutal

The surge of excitement to see the profusing blood,

The sight of the scene inspired me,

the tattoo on my shaved head received her shower of the sacrifice

as I bathed my myself with my game's blood,

the sign of living, the sign of awakening the beast within me

It was prowling within me, waiting in hunger, and now it is satisfied,

I grinned in total satisfaction, the weapon has gotten its official license,

a new brand, I am Hassasin!!

I looked around, and I was at awe,

it was just like da Vinci's portrait,

elegant yet mysterious,

I am a masterpiece!

I slit deeply into the thigh, warm blood gushed out!

I branded myself, just like a warrior, worthy of being worshipped!!

I took fatal instrument and walked out,

Clad in my sweater and denim,

I looked just like the girl next door, so naive and innocent,

in perfect camouflage..

the moments of self adoration!!

I smiled and lurked into the alley, here comes my prey!!

merry go around...n around!!

2010-07-26T03:53:00.000-07:00

many at times we jz play da flow, not goin against da flow when v actually wanna go...jz 4 one reason...lyk duh!!dun wanna b branded a "weirdo". well...its time 2 pull up ur socks n b urself..look at da man inda mirror not anotha man's mirror..cmon folks...ur reflection shows urself...lyk it o not...accept it...lyf as hw been described by people during da yesteryears..its a circle...o a wheel o wateva it is..wat goes ard...comes bk ard..thx Justin Timberlake!!n bla2 wit Karma!!well so da backbone of tis post is peeps outta thr...b urself...if it has to take da risk...let it happen...dun go wit da flow..add on sum spice!! so wat if ur a weirdo...live u lyf!!

perfect teatime!!

2010-06-16T07:54:00.000-07:00

dad gave me n mum tis treat since v r always trapped at home, so afta hunting for curtains and other accessories that comply...secret recipe is the next!these are mine (above)..took a shot of oni mine..hahaha

jln2 cari makan @ bangsar

2010-05-24T02:49:00.000-07:00

chicken briyani....yum2
like da place..totally indianized!!

7 types of vege n chutneys....

afta camerons...v were energy deprived...so v went 2 church n headed 2 bangsar 2 eat...i guess da picture cud describe more than my words...

camerons!!part 3

2010-05-23T07:48:00.001-07:00

da other part of da hill scenery....waterfalls!!
papa, chits n tina hunting 4 fish....bk 2 da early civilization..:)

jeyamz n janu

me...feelin those fluid running thru my feet...BBrrrrrrrRRR!!

wowness!!

da rocks n da bloody icy cold water!!

niceness~~

da place was huge...tis is da bottom of da falls

awesome!

it jz had rained abt a few hours ago..so da flow is rather heavy!!