Okay I am writing this blog after binge- watching and eating while sipping my Heineken

Its so depressing to know how people just do not treat you just like you treat them- and that hurts AF

All you do- you have them in mind- their well-being, their preferences, their liking, their favorite; but when tables turn; darn it! You are left all alone to self-loathe!

The more I said do what matters you the most. You are the center of your own life. You are the author of your own life- the more I end up in pitying myself and I hate that!

I was not born and designed for it- I am like a vessel without any expectations but yet it hurts as hell.

And knowing that nothing I can do to fix this and I would not be self- centered is both hurting and damn I am proud of myself!

Sometimes I wish I press on the  pause button and snooze about it.


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WordsPoeticallyWorth said…
Greetings from the UK. Sorry for your troubles. Life can be what we make of it!

Thank you. Love love, Andrew. Bye.
September 9, 2017 at 9:09 AM
princesz mel said…
Hey there Andrew,

Thanks for your comforting words. Appreciate it much <3
September 9, 2017 at 10:09 PM
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